Quick I Need ALL the Charisma Buffs!

    Today has been a lot of life's stupid rearing it's head.  I don't know how or why but despite all of it I'm actually hopeful and optimistic.  That's definitely been happening a bit lately.  I mean I know there's underlying stressiness BUT, it hasn't been prevalent enough to actually affect my day for very long.  Between all of this, I think I ultimately am realizing that the end of the badness is truly at hand and I will look back in a year and be able to tell people that the year started rocky, as is the case when there's huge change coming to begin with, and ended decently.

    It looks as though I'm not the only one who is moving on to another adventure here at work.  It is somewhat sad as this was one of my allies here.  But I really can't blame him, just means that he's winning his battle against this dungeon and getting to move on with his personal quest.  Which makes me happy!  Because at least I know he won't be here repeatedly wiping on the boss and his minions for much longer!  Hopefully I'll not be far behind!  Making as many charisma checks as I can to bulk up for tomorrow so I can amaze and enchant my potential new bosses!

    I do think it's a sign about this job however.  This guy was the manager of residential sales and he's been doing this for around two years now.  I hope that it's not a sign of worse things to come, because from my experience it's not really a good thing when management starts to jump ship.  As I have been talking to people here it's becoming apparent, that many people before me have had this exact boss fight before.  Despite all of the badness I've dealt with here I don't wish anyone to be forced to find a new adventure.  I have been there it's not an easy thing at all.

    It also is sounding like this place is more of a speed  bump on the way to better adventures and personal quests.  I just found out today also that a whole new boss fight is about to begin with the whole office.  It seems that all of the minions, except sales and field guys, that have been here for a while will be made part time and have hours cut.  So I have a feeling more will follow in my co-worker and my wake to find a new path once that happens.  I had no idea when I took this job that I'd be beating my head at this dungeon for close to seven months and be flustered and attempting to move on in life for five of those.

    When I do unlock the "Dungeon Complete" achievement for this job I can assure you I'll be ecstatic and seriously looking forward to whatever's next.  I do know that there have been plus' to this dungeon.  It's helped me with writing, as I've gotten a LOT of that done with nothing else to do here.  It's also given me a lot of awesome inspiration for these random babblings about how life relates to gaming, and you all keep reading...bwahabwaha...I mean, I said nothing.  It's also helped me hone some of my less used Rogue abilities.  Which has been interesting and new.  I mean come on, if you can't learn from the bad things how can you appreciate all the good things when the come!  So as of posting tomorrow I'll be able to have a better idea if that achievement will be unlocked or not!

Looking for One More for Dungeon, Tank Needed!

    The Peepening was fantastic on Friday, there was much fun had and MANY different creative things done using Peeps as a medium for art!  I absolutely can't wait for more of this to come in future!  I am happy to have helped out in the ways I can as well!  

    So this week I'm waiting for two big things that might turn into possible "Achievement Unlocked" moments.  Or so I'm hoping.  Been a lot of fighting through the crazy of winter this year.  But it seems like spring is finally bringing about the change and good things that a bunch of us are waiting on.  Wednesday is the first of them, I'm anxiously awaiting it.  I have a face to face interview for a better job, out of this dungeon of evil.  It seems I would be able to stop rolling my stealth rolls constantly and not having to roll willpower to not laugh in the face of the stupid that calls in.  Or wiping entirely by arguing in my boss battles and causing a blow that would cause him to go down below 30% health pride wise and bring about his enraging.  In other words getting myself fired BEFORE I get the new job.  

    Today's battle here at work actually didn't involve the boss battle which has been raging for months now.  I swear I'll defeat him eventually!  It was with a possible new minion for him.  He came in for a meeting with the boss to see if he was a good fit to be a minion (i.e. a job interview).  As he came in to tell me why he was here I could see he never learned the art of subtlety or just kept failing his rolls.  After the initial hello his gaze ended up somewhere that I was not comfortable with.  So I handed him the pre-screening paperwork and told him to go fill it out.  Glad to not have him staring at me any longer.  When he came back to let me know he had finished the paperwork, he did it again.  So I told him to go wait again and called the boss to come get him.  As he walked out after meeting with the boss he kept turning to stare at me as he walked out the door.  Sometimes I REALLY wish I could make this stuff up, but it truly happens.

    From what it sounded like after the interview was done, I think that he may actually have been approved of as a minion so it means he'll be working with us as well.  I'm not so ok with this.  Because I know for a fact that as the boss believes I don't have too many points in intelligence, he will never believe me if the minion continues to be a creepy old man.  Don't get me wrong, I know people look at those they believe are attractive, but when it gets to the point of making someone else uncomfortable, it's just not cool.  I seriously wish that more people would put points in tact or even at that point willpower NOT to be a jerk!

    I really wanted to say, "Dude, I'm a daddy's girl, I don't have daddy issues!  Keep your eyes where they belong!"  I don't usually get this way either, as I do usually know people look.  But this was excessive and not in the, I'm laughing because that dude just walked into the door staring kind of way that enables me to give popcorn to my friends at Con's.  But in the way that I noticed it and it made me feel like a piece of meat.  I shudder to think of what this guy is like on a daily basis.  Sometimes in life I just call out in my head, "I NEED A TANK!!!"  Because that way at least it won't be just little squishy, cloth wearing me dealing with a particularly bad pull.  

May the Peeps Be With You....

    Today is Peep day!  Yes I do mean the little marshmallow birds, bunnies and other such fun things.  For the past few years my good friend and owner of Strange Child Productions and the person who runs Pioneer Valley Dishcrawl has had a day after Easter where she would get a bunch of Peeps, and bring them to her work and they would have fun with epic battles, designing different scenes and in general just having a day of fun with Peeps.  Now I have been hearing about this for a few years now.  Well tonight in Easthampton, MA she's having and event...The Peepening!!!  I for one am ecstatic, because it means that for the first time I too will be able to help with the battles of epicness that is Peep Day!

    I know to some it may sound silly, but really if you think about it, we all do silly things sometimes with our friends that are exceptionally fun and weird sounding to those who don't do them.  I mean how many times have we all sat there with friends cheering each on or trash talking on a video game, hanging out rolling dice while our little armies of miniatures battle to the death, or even all gather together to go to a specific movie (sometimes in costume even).  To some those things would seem strange of silly as well.

    As a gamer I'm used to the things I do to be somewhat different from society's view of normal, and I'm not just ok with it but proud of the fact I am just that.  Do people think some of the things I do for fun are strange or crazy, sure.  But honestly normal is WAY too boring for my tastes.  I came to grips with the fact that I'm not going to fit into the mode of normal a LONG time ago.  But then I'm the first person to admit I am in fact crazy.  The key is that I've found some folks who's crazy works with mine so being myself is a LOT easier!

    So if you're in the mood this evening for something silly, fun and just a LITTLE bit geeky and find yourself in the Easthampton area, stop on by!!  I can assure you it'll be a blast and seriously, it means you're actually allowed to play with your food for once how often can you really say that!  Plus you know you might find something that you'll be excited for every year!

Dreams Do Come True...Sure, If They Do, Let Me At 'Em

    Dreams are funny things.  Sometimes they show us what our heart truly desires and sometimes they show us what our deepest fears are.  Then again sometimes they show us just how crazy we really are.  Now I am no stranger to dreams.  I'm not one of those people who is able to forget them upon waking either.  I'm wondering if that's because I have hidden dots in dream or if I have the flaw "Nightmares," perhaps it's someone else who has many dots in Dream causing it.  Either way lately there's been a lot of them.  I mean at least they're not usually the night terrors of my youth, as I learned how to fight back and wake myself up usually before it gets to the point of waking up that way.  Yay for having an extremely active imagination!  Not always a bad thing, but at the time it wasn't so good.  Granted I do believe that it has given me HUGE amounts of creative juice over the years and allows me to have put many things down on paper or through dancing that I may not have been able to without it.

    Last night was particularly weird.  Now like I said it's been AGES since I've had a full out night terror, which this didn't even qualify as such.  However it did qualify as something more then just a bad dream.  I know that fighting something big and evil in your dreams is generally a sign of inner turmoil in your own life, but honestly, this week has not been horrible and has left me in a relatively ok state.  I mean life isn't perfect, but I've been plugging along, fighting the good fight and rolling my dice to make all my checks, and using my points in things to continue my adventure and keep going forward.  So you can imagine my surprise when I had a FULL night of bad dreams and nightmares.  Kinda made me wonder if there were Nightmare Court Sylvari hiding in my room somewhere, but I couldn't find them anywhere and I definitely wasn't running from Freddy, so, who knows.

    So in the first dream that I can remember I was being chased by something bad, like REALLY bad.  I was with my crew, and suddenly we knew something was about to happen.  The sky darkened and suddenly a portal opened from what looked like a very evil place and something came out.  Even though I never fully saw it, I knew it was something that I had to fight to protect people I cared about.  I pushed my friends to run and I began to do things that would prevent it from getting to us.  Finally it gained on us.  So I did what I had to do and started to ready myself to fight it.

    I was able to get my friends out just before it got them, stopping it by somehow producing a ray of some sort of bright energy.  It then pounced on me and I started kicking it.  Apparently I wasn't just kicking in the dream as I woke myself up physically kicking at this creature of badness.  Fighting for the side of good apparently in my dreams and in reality.  So I rolled over and attempted to go back to sleep.  It took a while and a bit of tossing and turning.  Which caused my cat to decide to keep her head against mine and just purr to try and help me relax.  That part was adorable.

    Finally I was able to sleep again.  This one wasn't bad, per say just EXTREMELY weird and some what of a bad dream.  I was at some sort of Convention, though not one I'd ever been to before.  I was even dressed up in a very cool cos-play of Lady Mechanika who is an awesome comic character.  Everything was unfamiliar except some of the people I was there with.  Going to a specific panel, which was dealing with aquatic animals (other then penguins I don't know very much about them), they had a  contest for people who could answer the most trivia about them.  Now my friend, it was a friend who I refer to as my big sister in real life, encouraged me to go up as it was something apparently I knew ALL ABOUT!  I went up and one other girl went up against me.

    Now this was someone who I don't know in my waking but in my dreams, I knew her well and couldn't stand her.  So of course I had to beat her.  Even her costume was something that irked me as all she ever did was try to one up me.  It was a very close call, but I ended up beating her and winning in the end, which is when she decided to attempt to fight me in full girl fashion, going to pull my hair and all.  After a bit of dodging a couple of my friends came to stand by me.  Which was when she pulled a sword from somewhere which she then went after someone who'd come to help me.  I used her distraction to disarm her and hold her hands behind her back until security took her away.  Then I woke up a little disoriented but right about the time I should have as my alarm went off right after.

    All in all a very weird night.  Though it really does prove that I try to be my best even in my subconscious, anyone every questioning whether or not I have a generally good alignment, well my dreams would say differently.  It's not like I'm siding with the bad things and I'm generally going down fighting for people and goodness. Perhaps these dreams should have clued me in to the fact that I am a fighter in a fight of flight situation a little bit earlier.  But never really thought of it like that.  Either way, despite the weirdness and the badness, it hasn't even affected my mood.  As my optimistic, generally happy outlook that has seemed to be returning finally.  Either way, strange night was strange and in many ways amusing.  Darn mages poking at my psyche to see how I'll react.  I swear, if I knew who it was, I'd have to I don't know, do something.

"Take Me to Jail, Please! A Klingon is After Me"

    Seeing the boss has decided to not be in for the last couple of days, pretty sure he's away at a trade show or something, I've not had to deal with more sneak attacks and today even the biggest add which he has sent my way is also out.  So I have no new stories on the subject of work, though I'm sure there will be more to come.  Oddly it is a quiet day in the life of this little adventurer.  I can see the sun and blue skies through my windows to the outside of this dungeon I call work, despite the ridiculous amounts of stupid people calling in, it's a pretty good day.  Kinda glad for that as there's been a lot of not so good days lately, so yay for the good ones!

    Today I want to talk about cos-playing and character choices.  As I'm about to pull out a whole new character to dress up as I find myself thinking about all of this wondering if a lot of the other cos-players do what I do to prep for it.  It could just be my OCD and all of those years doing theater of some sort, I really don't know.  But when I decide to dress up as a character, I do my research.  Not only so that I can get the costume right, which is relative as I am a big believe that when you're dressing as a character you need to make it your own while sticking to the basics of said character, but I do this also so that I can see what makes that character tick.  Getting their back story, how they treat other's, and basically trying to get inside their head to see how to portray them properly.

    Most of the cos-playing I have done has been on comic characters which means there's LOTS out there on each one.  Which is good in the long run, because that makes my research MUCH easier.  Not only does it mean lots of info and generally lots of fun reading (oh darn having to sit and read comics occasionally) and some very cool pictures which give great later ideas for costuming as said character.  I guess it's kinda one of those things like with actors where they sit, read their scrip and ask, "what is my motivation" with each character they play.

    The other thing I sometimes wonder is if people will cos-play someone because they connect to a character or if it's strictly just because they think that character is cool, looks neat or they kinda looks like them.  Because I know sometimes you just have to find a character that is awesome and do your very best to be that character.  I can honestly say that I have done all of the above.  Though lately I've been trying hard to find something I can relate to with each character I portray.  I don't want to be that person who dresses up in something fun and in turn knows NOTHING about the person I look like.

    I know with Ivy and myself there are ways I COMPLETELY jive with her, she's hyper intelligent, she's very protective of her own (it's portrayed over and over with how protective she is of Harley and how many times she comes to her rescue), loves nature and plants, and has been screwed over by the opposite gender A LOT (actually it was a HUGE betrayal from the man who seduced her, originally it was to help him steal an Egyptian artifact filled with herbs and was revised later to be her mentor another botanist, causing her to go from the botanist Pam Isley to the dangerous beauty filled with poison).  These are all things which make sense to me, am I a person who would be lead to a life of crime due to all of the things I've been through, maybe not, but it doesn't mean I don't understand her and perhaps if I had her powers it may have been a different story.

    So let me ask, what motivates you with your costumes?  If you are indeed into dressing up as other characters that is.  Because that is always something I'd LOVE to hear about!  Let me know!

Real Life Stealth vs Perception/Alertness Ready, Roll!

    Seeing there's still a lot of chaos going on in life right now.  Which includes but is not limited to the whole CISPA bill that the House passed.  I am going to say if you haven't please sign the petition and call your senators, I have and honestly every voice helps, because it would be seriously infringing on what little is left of our own privacy here on the interwebs and I know I for one don't want that and I'm sure that MANY of the people who read this blog wouldn't either.  Now that I have gotten on my soap box about that.  There really is a lot going on, so today I'm going to go into yet another amusing story about the evil super elite boss that is the owner of the company I work for.  To attempt at providing an amusing break from the crazy in life right now.

    After yesterday I have come to the conclusion that the boss is trying to all of a sudden use stealthy things to fight me.  On three separate occasions yesterday he attempted a sneak attack on me to see if he could catch me doing something other then waiting for the phone to ring.  As apparently he has decided that nothing more is allowed.  My direct boss, his minion who jumped me last week has informed me now that all I need to do is just get better at hiding it.  Because she does know I get bored, of course this was after she had already come up here and yelled at me about everything.

    So due to having been yelled at about this already, I have been actually using my rolls in perception/alertness whenever anyone comes walking up the hallway.  No way am I going to get in trouble for that.  Also I've been staring at my computer screen on the email sight and customer data entry sight a lot more just to keep myself safe on that.  Now my boss isn't a very quiet guy, nor does he have ANY ranks, dots or levels in stealth.  He also doesn't have any sort of vanish abilities to make him not been seen, heard or anything else.  So between my high dice rolls and his lack of ability.  I caught him actually peeking around the corner to check on me.  I both heard him coming, and saw him peek out of the corner of my eye.  I was left shaking my head and really glad that I am in fact working on the achievement "New Full Time Job"

    Talk about making your employees uncomfortable and paranoid.  It has been stated previously that I have yet to beat this particular dungeon and get past him as a boss.  But it makes me laugh that he keeps trying to switch up his tactics and take me out in other ways.  What did you not get about the fact that I'm an intelligent, stubborn, little Celt?  Just because I'm female doesn't mean I'm a push over, or a lesser person.  I am in fact someone who's been through worse then this and come out the other side, not always unscathed and completely the same, but everything causes growth.  If he wants to fight, he may want to get ready for the fire because I refuse to give in and leave until I have actually gotten my achievement.
   

Can't I Just Use My Real Life Dot's in Time to See What's Next?

    F.O.I.G (we pronounce it like it's spelled to keep it simple, yay made up words, or something), or find out in game, is a phrase that which those of us who've been gaming or larping for a while know.  It's basically when the plot writer, GM/ST/DM informs you, just wait, you'll find out as the plots unfolds.  It's a term I find myself using for my players in larps that I have or currently write plots for and I definitely use it for players when I run tabletop games.  I just don't want to give away too much information ahead of time.  I don't like giving things away, because I'd much rather allow them to have the experience when it happens in game.  I know that I'm just as bad about it when I'm in a game or playing at a larp as well.  I know, I know, patience is a virtue and good to practice.  But, when a plot is good, you want to know EVERYTHING EVER!!!

    Lately, life has been kinda like that.  Usually I'm a fairly patient person, letting myself just relax and let life come when it comes.  But there's been a few things right now that I just, don't want to wait to f.o.i.g, I want to know now!!  Things dealing with the mess with my car, I'm starting to work on and try to get through it, but I'd love to have some sort of vision to the future to see what I decide to do.  Things with new jobs, I'm still in contact with, but waiting to hear from a couple on whether or not they are definitely going to happen.  Things with my living situation, I'd REALLY like to know SO RIGHT NOW!!!  If I'm going to be able to achieve my goals with that.  I'd really much rather know before I get to that particular plot line so I can have a heads up then wait and f.o.i.g.  I know that's not how it works, and I need to allow my patience and optimism that are part of my nature to take over.

    Though I do know that one of the things that does make it tougher is the fact in today society we have a very, instant gratification mindset.  Not many of us have the patience to wait something out.  Though honestly if something's truly the right and a good thing, it's worth the wait.  But we as a societal whole were not always taught that about life.  We want it and we want it now!  Now I definitely stand by the thought process that it isn't just nature or nurture but rather both.  However, the learned behaviors sometimes do create these ideals that ignore the fact that we have very different natures then that.  Eventually we come back and remember, hey wait...that's not me.  But for a time, we have hiccups and don't want to wait to f.o.i.g.  But honestly I promise, if it's worth it, down the road the wait will seem like the smallest things in the world.

   

   

Somewhere Some Villain Schemes, But His Number's Up...

    When there are crazy big events like what's been going on right now, it truly does seem like there are very real super villains in the world.  Remember there are also very real heroes who are doing everything the can to fix the situation and allow us to move forward.  One day at a time.  Now I don't follow twitter, but I saw this picture and it somewhat fit what I've been thinking and feeling about all of this.  Today I am sporting my black for solidarity and peace for the families of the victims, so happy to be friends with so many and yesterday in spirit and hopefully in the next few days in person part of the Wall between those who are trying to spread hate and bigotry in the world and those who don't deserve their hatred.  As well as my blue for supporting Boston as a whole while it goes through their horrible times.

    I want to say thank you to all of those heroes who are fighting for those families and people.  As well as trying to help Boston be safer again.  I also want to send my love, support and healing thoughts to everyone suffering from the chaos going on in the world right now.  I also am hoping so much that our heroes will find this villain, and get him alive so that we might be able to learn more about who's behind the whole thing and start to move forward again!

Unlocking Real Life Achievements

    In video games often times, there are special little challenges which are meta-goals outside of the main part of the game.  Fun little goals that you can reach for and attempt to get.  Things to make the game play extend just a LITTLE bit and give you something extra that helps you feel accomplished, whether it's a title you get in the game because you have SO MANY PETS *cough*  I mean, I know nothing of this, so many kills, a certain amount of items you've collected, healing a certain number of dead on the ground, etc etc etc.   It's fun and silly and adds to the game.

    So along these lines, I've been equating a lot of the little goals in life to achievements lately.  I had quite a few of them back in the fall, Achievement Unlocked, moved back to my hometown.  Achievement Unlocked, find new job (granted that one has been a battle for a while and it's part time, but it's a job and right now that's the most important part), title for that particular extra goal was The Employed.  Achievement Unlocked, remove myself from a lot of the drama filled situations that my life had been filled with, that one I believe came with the title of Flame Fighter.  As I said, lots of achievements in my life lately.  I can hear the noise for getting said achievements in my head as I talk about them.  Wonder which title I should wander around with today.  Ok back to the point, no more tangents.

    I've had a BIG achievement I've been dealing with for a little while now.  I'd like to say I've been diligent and hacking at it as much as I aught to have been, but I truly haven't.  It seems as of right now however, that I am about ready to start actually working at it hard core.  As I have been level grinding for a while now, it's finally time to buckle down and work on it.  I mean this whole time I've been working on a part of it, i.e. find a better and full time job, but now it's time to start on the hard parts.  The parts that will make things with my gold farming a slight bit tighter, but once I'm done with all of the tiers to get to the title, I will feel SO accomplished, happy and proud.  It'll make all the hard work to get there completely worth it in the end.  So here goes!

    Seriously, I'm all about sharing the good, the bad and the ugly, so please feel free to reply with how you're confronting your own personal achievements that life is making you work on.  Maybe we can have some good advice for each other on how to deal with it all!

Power of Three, BAH! Better, the Power of Two...

    Seeing it's a tough week all around and I've been running into adds from the boss fight with the owner of the company, he's sending his minions (the aforementioned traitorous co-workers) to yell at me and has gone into a mode where I can't use any attacks on him, which is better then yesterday where I actually incurred aggro a couple of times and took a couple of sonic attacks.  I guess I'm not going to be able to pass my "hide in plain sight" checks EVERY time (note to self up my points in stealth).  But a girl can hope!  I'm going to post about something COMPLETELY different and amusing and well, seeing it happened here at work today shortly after my run in with the boss' adds.

    So just a few moments after I had aggro'd the boss' adds here at work a guy walked in.  I did a triple take as I swear this guy was a clone or something of another friend of mine.  The guy even had the same smile and seeming nature about him.  The biggest difference in appearance was this guy's hair was about shoulder length and my friend's is MUCH longer, and as far as I know, he wouldn't cut it that short anytime soon.  The other thing that made me think it wasn't him, was that my friend lives and works in another state, and I'm pretty sure anyone who works here wouldn't be looking for his particular work.  But it did throw me for a loop.  It turned out the guy was here to fix one of my co-worker's cars but it was amusing and made me smile a bit to see someone's doppelganger here at my place of employment.

    The more amusing part is the guy smiled and looked at me curiously as well, almost as if he knew me as well.  Not sure what that was about as it WASN'T my friend.  But it is what added to my amusement of the whole thing.  Perhaps he was just smiling at the girl behind the glass as I was on the phone and hadn't been able to get to talking to him as of yet.  Or perhaps I am a doppelganger of one of his friends or something, not sure how I feel about there being more then one me, but eh, it's a distinct possibility.  I've heard rumors of such things before.  Though the last one I heard about was a blonde (which is weird in itself) version of myself and lived in FL, but who knows.   

    This isn't the first time I've run into doppelgangers of friends, and I'm sure it won't be the last.  But I always wonder if we see these as looking like our friends because we're missing that particular person or if genetics truly does only have so many patterns, with SLIGHT differences.  Either way, I love seeing doppelgangers it makes me smile and think of the people whom these doubles look like.  It also makes me think of all the jokes that people make about cloning other's when they think that person is particularly awesome and such.  Then again, who knows, perhaps there is some scientist out there who IS going about cloning people, I mean we've seen sheep right?

Real Life Jumping Puzzles...of Chaos...

    I have always seen myself as a chaotic good person, liking the bits of chaos that transpire around us and flowing with them as they work around and with me. Right now however there seems to be an abundance of chaos going around in the world.  It has made me very much so wonder if suddenly the dice rolls of life have been taken over by a chaos mage.  I know that chaos always comes before great change, so if that's the case, I'm pretty sure there's going to be a LOT of change coming so be ready.  Hmm wonder if that means we should hold our bags open to catch all the coins...  Ok ok I know groan worthy and filled with pumancy but hey, I'm trying to get some smiles here!

    In the game that I most frequently play, Guild Wars 2, we have jump puzzles.  They are these places that you have to jump from area to area sometimes fighting your way through to get the chest or prize at the end. They are chaotic, silly, hysterical when you fall because ultimately it is due to some silly error or not QUITE making that jump or with one of them that is even in a starting zone, though it really shouldn't be, it seems almost slippery and attempts to dump you off as you have to jump onto things that are somewhat at an angle.

    Last night after all of the chaos of yesterday I signed on with my Elementalist to try and burn some faces off and ignore the world for a while.  After having fun with some of our friends running around killing centaurs, we went on an excursion.  Now I'd been having to back off from doing the jumping puzzles as my mouse hated me and due to it's age and breaking down, it would cause me not to be able to move anywhere.  I finally got a new Roccat Lua a couple of weeks ago and it's been great.  It's simple as I use my keyboard for most of my functions but it's fantastic and if you're looking for a simple 3 button gaming mouse I recommend it!

    So one of the puzzles we did was the Chaos Crystal Cavern, you get up to a hole in the ground pick up some diving goggles and jump out and off into the air, where you land in the water get to land and that's when the true chaos begins.  You jump onto this series of stones that jut out of the water and as you hop from one to the next there's a chance of what looks like a circle of lightning after it clears if you notice something, it has changed the game somehow.  You become itty bitty, HUGE, fast, slow, the camera is SUPER CLOSE and you can barely see or it's far away and it makes the whole room much easier to see.  It is pure chaos, hysterical and so much fun.  Needless to say there was much laughter and falling due to not being able to see where I was going.  The darn chaos just kept making me be as near sighted in the game as I am in real life!

    Today as we go forward on our jumping puzzles in life, the ups and downs that is presented to us in day to day dice rolls.  Remember that we always have to be on the lookout for the chaos that is our lightning strikes.  The things that change the game, make things better or worse and sometimes can be the difference between making that next jump or falling off.  I mean, either way at the end of each puzzle is a chest filled with Elite loots!  So can't be all bad right?  Just remember breath, relax, find things that help you through the chaos and keep hopping forward.  Because the only way to get through it all and get to your chest and get to the changes that follow all the chaos is to push on and go forward to the end.  That is unless you have a Mesmer or Portal Gun...because that is an entirely different story for another day...

Sensing the Need to Roll Real Life Initiative...

    Now my town is a very diverse town, we have the Russian mob, the Irish mob, we have a decent conglomeration of upper middle and upper class that live in one particular part of town and then we have a whole lot of Red Neck type people who live here.  Which leads to some interesting looks because I do have a tendency to dress a LITTLE on the gothier side of things normally.  Back in the day there were a lot of folks who lived in my town or near enough by that they'd come here to hang out or go to shows here that dressed in some sort of alternative style.  However most of the punk rock, gothy, metal head types here decided to get out of this town over the years (I was kinda friends with a lot of them and am still in contact with some of them).  Not really long enough ago that it should cause the reaction it did yesterday while I was walking in town.

    I was just out for a walk, albeit a REALLY long walk (I think I'd already been gone an hour at that point).  But I usually don't have issues like this so it'd never really been a big deal before.  Today I was definitely in all black complete with my Eluveitie, who is an amazing folk metal band, hoodie as the final layer.  Believe me I was looking like I'd dressed for and been walking around for a while, by no means dressed to impress anyone.  As I'm starting on my way home a truck turns a corner.  Now having seen the truck at the stop sign I'd noticed that the two guys were the typical redneck townies that I'd grown accustom to unfortunately being around and here.  So I'd just continued on my way home.  They had seen me for sure, because out of the corner of my eye I had seen their heads moving as I walked past where they were stopped.

    So they turned the corner and as they pulled onto this new street, they stopped.  Being curious I kinda glanced over at them to see what was going on.  They were looking at me in the rear view mirror.  Just sitting there, stopped in the middle of the street watching me.  I've never in my life before had that, "time to roll initiative" feeling but I did right at that moment.  I continued walking, with a determined look on my face, considering I am obviously someone who has the confidence to walk about by  herself without someone else to "hold my hand."  Just waiting to see if they'll get out of the truck and I'll have to use some sort of self defense instead of continuing my walk, or be overpowered by two guys who were both bigger then me and have something worse happen.

    After a few moments of them obviously watching me they finally drove off and I continued on my way.  Letting out a sigh of relief to be sure.  I was a lot more on guard then I had thought I was.  I really was glad when they drove off and I didn't have to use any of the small amounts of self defense I know.  Definitely made me think about putting more points into agility, strength and using my body as a weapon as I'm not always carrying a bow, sword or have too many "spells" that cause physical harm to folks.  Weird that when it came down to it, I know in a situation like that I'm not a flight person but a hold my ground you're not going to take me fight person.  This whole thing is not going to stop me from being my normal self and having the confidence and go to do things on my own, but seriously, don't you have something better to do then to stop in the middle of the street and stare at cute little gothy/metal type chicks who are just minding their own business walking on a nice day?!  Making her go on the defensive and wish she had a fireball to throw at your stupid truck!

Wait Wasn't that Pyramid Head? Get 'em? That's Your Plan?

    Today I am a reflection of my usual self, an illusionary clone of myself close to the way Mesmer's make clones of themselves in GW2.  I have no ability to brain so to speak if it isn't involved in creative things.  This whole week I've been spending my nights fighting off big evil things that want to capture, hurt and or kill me and mine in my dreams.  So I've been waking up more tired each day, though I have been filled with some sort of creative drive that I swear would rival the creativity if I actually had one of the Muses from Greek legend standing right behind me, if not all nine.

    Now don't get me wrong, I have gone down fighting in each dream, no matter what or who is chasing me. I refuse to let evil get to the ones I care most about if I can help it.  So night after night I fight demons, zombies, other types of undead or some other evil type of being, and watch my friends show themselves to be some sort of supernatural being or have amazing powers of some variety while we fight the baddies together.  The end usually comes when my own psyche decides to wake itself up due to us being taken down or captured.  I guess I don't want to know what happens next.  The mind is a crazy place sometimes.

    So my point basically was, today is a day where I'm feeling as if I had been running, fighting, and rescuing people in reality rather then just in my subconscious and as I continue to fight these beings in my sleep, I have to realize that if any of these things were to happen in the waking world, I would fight just as hard to protect people.  I'd have to use some of my magick sphere's or some of my rogue skills, wonder if I'd be any good at sneaking up on a baddie and backstabbing, 2d6 + 1 per level and then another +2 for the backstab!  Then switch off and cause mod wounds using my life magick.  Oops they dropped!  Time for the victory fanfare!

    Add the rest of my adventuring party and those bad guys don't stand a chance!  Because you put us together and we could probably break worlds if we really wanted to.  I'm thinking this may have to be a table top rpg I run down the road at some point.  Maybe I'll make it even more fun and bring out the old World of Darkness stuff, let people play what they think they would be, hmm, must think on this.  Now back to the writing, plotting and the being tangential that my lack of brain power is inspiring.

It's Not Like I'm a Marauder Over Here...Silly Real Life Paradox

    So, as some of you know, my first table top rpg was Mage: The Ascension.  I love me some Old School White-Wolf their system for character creation involves lots filling in dots, the game itself lends it self to rolling lots of d10's and very cool abilities, types of supernatural beings to play.  I guess you could say I'm a sucker for this system.  Not sure if it's because it's what I started on or that I just jive with the world that it encompasses, types of magic, beings, etc etc it involves.  Either way, it's kinda my favorite system and whenever I get the chance to play it or run it, I just have an EPIC amount of fun.  I know it's awful to say but I even love the larp version, which is called Mind's Eye Theater for those who don't have ANY clue what I'm babbling about.  It's actually how I met a lot of the people I still consider part of my crew, back in the day.  

    What's my point with all of that description?  You may ask.  Well here we go, as my first game was MtA. I will sometimes think about what Spheres I have (ie schools of magic).  Today it was brought up while talking to a friend about wishing it was already time for the day to be done.  I mentioned that I don't have quite THAT many dots in Time and Correspondence sadly.  The conversation went on to talk about how Paradox (which is essentially the balancing force to a mage) would slap me silly if I did.  Due to the fact I'd be using those a LOT and well, the universe can only take SO much bending of the laws of physics without repercussions.  Rumpelstiltskin coins it best in the show Once Upon a Time when he says, "All magic comes with a price dearie."  

    Besides all that, I'm less of Virtual Adept or member of the Cult of Ecstasy and much more of a Verbena (though less of a hippy then most of them) or Dreamspeaker.  Though I do wonder if what I've been considering my "Irish luck," because the true Irish luck was actually bad luck in history didn'cha know, is actually Paradox kicking at me for all my helping folks.  I tend to be someone who helps people heal through things.  In the past it has even been an amusing joke amoungst my friends and I as it seems like when I date someone I help that person get to a point where they're ok and able to stay with the next person they actually date.  Just an amusing coincidence in my past and life.  But either way, I have thought that perhaps Paradox is telling me I've done too much with my sphere's of life, spirit and mind to help out the folks I care most about.  Despite the fact I had THOUGHT I was using a lot more coincidental magick then I was.

    Honestly if this is the case, come on Paradox, bring it on!  Because if it means that I have helped people and allowed them to be ok in the long run, even with it not working out that way for me, I am ok with that.  Seriously though, if this is all that Paradox has got, I think I'm doing well, it's not like I've been blinked out of existence or put in a pocket dimension or had something else that could result from too much Paradox and/or meeting a Paradox Spirit.  Though, I shouldn't say that TOO loudly or else I might incur their wrath.  With the "Paradox" of my bad luck that I do have, because of the good results on the other side, it may be a heavy cost, but I pay it gladly.

Chaotic Good Dreamer Caregiver...What? Real Life Alignments and Archtypes

    Lawful, Neutral, Chaotic, Good, and Evil, these are the traditional alignments those of us who do  d20 table top gaming are used to.  Most of the time people CAN fall into these categories, and as with any good d20 game we can change alignments along the way.  Something I've always found interesting, going back to my roots with White Wolf and the World of Darkness is their Nature/Demeanor rather then alignment.  I somewhat feel that this one is much closer to what actually happens in life.  Because a person's perception of what is good and bad really does differ from person to person.  I mean, I know we all joke about some of the people we've met in life being oh I don't know, Chaotic Stupid, but even that person may not seem that way to other people.

   I've had a lot of conversations lately, with "my crew."  We've been talking about making up our own little alignment topics.  I don't think anyone's brought up the Chaotic Stupid before, I think that's a new one.  Coined, all mine!  I do think that honestly a lot of the Arctypes from WoD would work in our system.  Just add lawful, neutral or chaotic to them and there we go.  I mean come on, I can tell you I know a few chaotic visionary's myself.  On the other hand I've also seen a lawful rogue or two in my time, and no I'm not saying that any of MY crew is particularly that, just, I've seen them.

    Also, I'm not saying that each person thinks in terms of good or bad, lawful or chaotic.  Or that every person just has a Nature and Demeanor.  I am a VERY social person and make friends pretty easily.  I'm also the person that people tend to open up to.  Being that I do ACTUALLY care about people in general.  So I see the layers involved in each person often.  But I do see that people are driven by what they are truly like when you strip away the way they want to seem.  Even if they don't always even realize it themselves.

    As this has been something that's come up in my crew over the past couple of months, it's something that has been on my mind.  I really believe that it's a combination of a few things.  I definitely watch people in my crew who try to be the best people they can, do the right thing, but do it in a way that makes sense to them.  In my head that makes them good people, perhaps not in the eyes of someone else.  I mean come on, with a bunch of folks who love being Celebrants, and chaotic in their D&D form of roguishness what can you ask for.  It's certain that this little Chaotic, Good, Celebrant/Survivor/Caregiver/Dreamer couldn't tell you exactly what's right or wrong, because I too am flawed.  But I know what I feel is right and see a lot of my crew being just that.  Not too much "chaotic stupid" going on around these parts.

   

Downtime, Resting to Regain Real Life Spells

    Ok, ok, I KNOW I didn't post yesterday, sick lady was VERY sick.  I was attempting to get over being poisoned with my allergy to onions this past weekend so pretty much I was zoning out watching shows, reading and sleeping all day, I didn't even have the mental capacity to play GW2 which tells you where I was.  Silly lack of cure poison!  I really need to look into that!  Because if I could avoid EVER having that reaction again, I'd be a very happy lady.  I'm still a little bit queasy but at least I'm both back at work and back to the grind with writing and posting.

    So this weekend was filled to the brim with fun for this little Divine Agent in training.  Friday I went with my sister again, out to another show for the Bardish types from her husband and our friends' band and the other band that was there with them.  Being as it was a place she was used to and the fact there were other folks there she knew, her invisibility field didn't completely work as well as it had the last show we went to.  It was completely okay as most of the folks there didn't actually approach us despite this.  There was attention paid from across the room, but No touchy!   As it was obvious we were there with the bands and the people who did come up to us, were people either my sister knew so it was okay or members of the other band there that night, which was fun to hang out with them as well!  Was quite enjoyable, and I am hoping to get to more of the first bands shows as they were pretty amazing.  One of the guys from that band definitely was trying to get me to follow the band up to Maine this next weekend, but sadly that's a bit far and kinda out of the question currently.  Still made me laugh a bit.

    I can honestly say that Saturday night was definitely my entrance into, "Oh my gosh it's spring woo!"  I went with some of my crew to a night which was filled with a lot of fun, some dancing, and lots of glowy goodness.  We all wore our best glowy fun outfits and just was finally able to let our hair down and relax.  I know with myself I definitely let myself be a little more chaotic, still on the good side of things as it wouldn't be me if I wasn't, but I was able to relax, let go and enjoy the downtime between battles with some of my favorite crew members!  Was a happy time and definitely a time to rest and rejuvenate.

    Sunday was adventuring with dice and my Pathfinder party.  We didn't get much done but there was a LOT of information found.  Mostly because they guys actually listened to the two good aligned party members before they rushed in and killed the WHOLE group of goblins.  Both of us were not really sure that we should just rush in and kill these goblins as they just seemed to be discouraged and not all that strong in their defenses and such.  But thankfully we ended up with a guide and an npc who was a good person to "gather information" from.  For instance we found out that the fort we'd been trying to sneak up on has a lot of the bosses we'd heard about so far in the campaign, which to me says, at level 3, lets not attack them and die just yet.  So yay!  I still have to go over that information and figure out some more things to ask of our prisoner, which I have my notes from and can do that in between games!  Woo!

    So other then the attempt at being poisoned it was a fantastic weekend filled with lots of resting and regaining my spells, rest, fun and oh did I mention fun?  Also, I feel that I have to mention, it now officially feels like spring!!!  No more refrigeration unit that is my desk/office at work!  Yay!

Real Life Intimidate, When did THAT Happen?

    Something I don't use often with the natural Charisma score, which the dice have given me at the start of this adventure called life, is the Intimidate skill, at least not on purpose.  I find that you truly do get more of a positive response to being nice, actually talking to people and leading by example then forcing or pushing them into doing something.  Diplomacy and strait Charisma are for the win in my book!  However, I have noticed that sometimes either my opinions or my charismatic self causes an unwilling Intimidate roll.  I definitely avoid attempting at rolling it, but it rolls on it's own.

    One such example was pointed out to me last night sadly.  Our very own sidekick type from last Friday's post spent the entirety of last night at our local night trying to dodge out of the way.  He seemed spooked and almost scared of me.  When I would come up and talk to people he would walk away and refused to come up and say hello at all.  Now, at first I figured he was just trying to be social and just saw a whole bunch of other people, until I started walking to him while he was by himself and he got a nervous, almost hardened look on his face and went the other way.

    Later in the night after lots of practicing my bard skills of dancing a lot, and spending time with all of my friends who were there, it was confirmed.  Apparently the fact that there are particular lines of conversation which I may seem to be strong and know how I believe about them intimidated him and made him no longer want to talk to me.  In other words I scared him away, just by being myself, having opinions and talking about them when asked.  I am not a person to push my own beliefs or thoughts on other's, but if I'm asked, I'm going to tell you how I feel, think or believe on something, and he had asked.  It made me a little sad that he had been so intimidated by this little cleric/rogue, that usually, without a bow, bird seed packet, foam weapon, dice or a controller in my hands wouldn't actually hurt anyone intentionally.

    I have hope that I can fix the situation, however until he has gotten over the affects of the fear spell I apparently cast without knowing, it is what it is.  While it is there, watching him roll dodge so many times, or attempt to use hide in plain sight poorly did amuse me a little.  It was almost comical to watch this poor guy actual back up from a group of people when he had walked up and realized I was there.  Or attempt not to look at me as I walked past.  It was as if I could hear the dice roll and the "please don't see me, please don't see me," thought going through his mind as I bounced from group to group of my friends.

    The only other way I've ever really seen intimidation is having someone who has made their interest known (usually on some form of non-face-to-face communication as it's easier that way) and informed me they'd been nervous to tell me as I'm intimidating to them because of said interest.  That has only happened a few times in my life, but it's still a weird thing, as one of my old co-workers said about me, while I was working a security job I might add, "You're not intimidating, cute, maybe a bit yes, intimidating?  No."

    I am open, honest, and as I said, relatively nice to people unless you hurt someone I care about.  If that is the case then, I will show you that scorn and fierceness that hell hath nor fury for.  But that is a story for yet another day.

Pwning the Real Life Newbs

    Ever run across someone while gaming, who just doesn't know what they're doing.  Someone so bad at the game that you just have to wonder if there is something wrong with that person?  If they're new to the game, well then they're just a newbie and perhaps they'll get better with time.  But if that person isn't brand new and is just THAT BAD, some of us refer to them as newbs or n00b.  It's become a very derogatory thing to be called this, it means you are kinda horrible at what you're doing.  I'm not just talking about Huntards from WoW, I'm talking across the bored with gaming.  You find newbs in video gaming, in miniatures gaming, in larping (oh my goodness do they exist in larping) and occasionally you find them even in tabletop rpgs (just not as much as usually the person who's new is being taught and shown how NOT to be that way).  Lately I've been learning a LOT that we also have newbs in real life questing.

    I am probably the LAST person to put down idealism, youth and having your own opinions about things, but I have come across some people who I just think they haven't been on enough of this quest called life to really get what is going on.  They're really newbies on their adulthood real life quest lines, occasionally they turn out to be actual newbs, but I try to give the benefit of the doubt before jumping to that idea.  Don't get me wrong, a lot of us were there once, young impressionable, idealistic and thinking we knew everything about the world.  We learned, grew and well I would say matured but I'll leave it at learning and growing.  I've just been noticing the newbie status as I have had a lot of the younger crowd talking with me, between helping to run a larp and just being one of those "older gamers" that shows how it's done, granted I also still look like I'm about 10 years younger then I am so, that helps too, especially with the ones who decide to be  puppies.  I'm also not saying this goes for everyone, but there have been a few situations lately that have definitely qualified as newbies and a few that are definitely newbs to boot.

    Just last night I ended up in a conversation with just such a person.  Now he had followed me around at the last Mythical Journeys event whenever he saw me, had obviously been trying to find me in the Book of Face and had decided to see about being friends.  He is friends irl with some of my "minions" as I like to call them at this particular game, i.e. a couple of the younger people at the larp that I have taken under my wing to show the ropes, and get them connected to things and pull them into plots and such.  So I was nice and decided to confirm the request for friendship.  After a little while he decided to start chatting with me and said hello.  I politely replied and talked with him for a bit.  He was quite obviously attempting to intrigue my interest, and hadn't looked at my page which plainly says how old I am.  After finding that out, he was shocked.  Still being puppy like he kept on trying to grill me for information about myself, I mentioned I had been reading that night and had to explain to him what Dune was (I'm re-reading them currently), which was my first sign that he was kinda a newb.  He asked if I was going to the next game.  I let him know I wouldn't be as there is a Metal and Hardcore festival that I'll be attending instead with some other friends.  Being completely serious informed me that metal was against his religion, and got a little on the judgmental side, telling me that it was evil.  I started to shake my head in shock.

    I realized about that time that I was definitely glad he doesn't play in any games I help run or write plot for.  As I'm pretty sure I would break him.  I also don't understand how metal is "evil and the devil" when he watches anime all the time (not saying anime is evil but it's not always the depiction of goodness and light), and plays in a larp with made up religions and gods, we are constantly having to deal with fiends and demons and well...some of the town are both shady, have made pacts with said creatures or just, well, just are not all pictures of light and goodness either.  His judgmental attitude towards my lifestyle, choices in music and activities really made me want to flat out call him a newb.  I am fairly certain he won't last long once he gets to know more of the people in the larping community that he's just joined.  As that sort of judgmental holier then though attitude usually doesn't last too long in those parts.  Or he'll break and get over his newbness, though that will be something to see.  Either way, was head shaking worthy and just kinda made me realize just how much I have been dealing with newbs.

 

SUPER AWESOME ADVENTURE BOX!!!!

    Having a hard time concentrating again today, mostly due to the fact that I am waiting to hear from two new options for my personal quest line.  Biding my time continuing to roll alright on hide in plain sight and spending more time reading various novels, working towards some of the higher achievements in life to find them and read them all or at least as many as I can, and doing some general listen to party member's stories via various different sources on this big compendium we call the internet while here at work, while at home I have been doing a lot of questing on Guild Wars 2.

    I have been very careful in my attempts not to aggro either the mobs who I found out last week were actually traitors in the long run and the boss.  I really don't want anything to happen before I am safely able to get myself out of this instance and continue on the questing.  I think since I started making my stealth rolls I've only failed one and it was a minor one as he only yelled at me through email.  So I was able to shrug it off and keep going with my day.

    So right now on GW2 we have a very silly thing, and it kinda reminds me of what's been going on here at work just with it's silliness.  It's called Super Adventure Box.  It's an instance, you go in and are suddenly transported to an 8-bit world (I now have the song 8-Bit World by Your Favorite Martian going through my head, if you haven't heard it, look it up, it's fantastic!).  You have to go and get a coin from the machine and give it to the monkey guy who is guarding the gates to get into the rest of the instance.  The whole thing is dodging the attacks from the other 8-bit creatures in the instance.  Monkey's that throw bombs, snakes who spit fire balls and acid (which I am seeing as the big reveal traitors), turtles you have to hit so the roll over so you can jump on them.  Various jump puzzles, obstacles and boss fights!  Oh the boss fights!  All so that you can collect ALL THE BAUBLES!!!  As well as get to the end and defeat King Toad, who is the biggest boss at the end.  Though there are two other "boss fights" along the way.  

    Like with what I've been dealing with here at work it's all about the tell's.  As long as you can duck and dodge out of the way when the bosses start their big attacks it's easy enough you can even solo it.  I've learned well enough when to stay out of the way as my very own "King Toad" isn't exactly quiet about his.  He is kinda loud and sound travels down the hallway from my desk in the front to his office in the back.  I can't say I exactly collect a lot of "baubles" here but, I've been managing to get through the levels, even now that I'm soloing the dungeon, pretty easily just like with this instance.  Now it's just a matter of finding the key to open the chest so I can win this dungeon and move on to my personal quest line again.

    On that note, I leave you with the commercial for SUPER AWESOME ADVENTURE BOX!!!  Curtesy of Youtube and Guild Wars 2!  Enjoy!

Sneak Attack, "Nothin' beat surprise...'cept rock"

   
    Perhaps I'm the only one, but I'm pretty sure that's not the case.  But sometimes in my life, I find myself feeling as though I have failed a perception check and suddenly something or someone succeeds in using their "sneak attack" on me.  I mean the BIG things, the ones that are worthy of the plus 2D6 like portrayed above.  I know that this past winter for myself and a few people in my adventuring party has had a lot of this.  Things that just suddenly sneak up and cause damage in one way or another.

    Needless to say as much as I've been gaining levels in the rogue class I've definitely been using a lot of my healing as well.  Between friends being broken which I've been rolling a lot of D8's to help with their hurting as well as myself taking the time to move out of combat range and rest so I can be at full capacity to meet each new battle with my normal optimistic, free spirited attitude.  Especially seeing my dodge has not been NEARLY high enough to avoid the bad luck sneak attacks that keep coming.

   I think it's high time I learned this skill and started overcoming and using it preventatively towards the things that would desire to use it on me.  Sneak up on these obstacles before they become just that.  Hitting things head on so I can defend better when they hit me, and when I do still find myself being hit by the extra damage do my best to dodge and heal right away so that we can continue fighting our way through this adventure we call life.  Because come on...what would my rogues do without their little healer.

Putting Away the Childish Things...

    Sometimes you realize you just have to grow up, and realize that it's time to be an adult.  Getting on with your life and putting away the things that are childish.  Start looking at what the current fashion trends are.  Get my nails and hair done, perhaps some blonde highlights rather then the dark auburn it is.  I mean have you seen the leggings in the stores now!  They're so cute!!  I also need to start going shoe shopping and get rid of all my crazy boots.  Seeing I have decided it is time to be an adult now and by far they aren't the heels I need or when I'm working out at the gym the cross trainers 

   I think it's time to settle down and find myself a nice doctor to marry so that I can be a proper wife and make sure to be the best at making him dinner, cleaning and keeping him happy.  Also once I am married I think it's high time I started to have children!  Two girls and a boy.  Must make sure to raise my daughters loving pink and being sugar and spice and everything nice.  Making sure my son is a proper gentleman and doesn't misbehave.  No more of this going off galavanting in the woods at larps with other friends, it'll be all my time for my guy only, I swear in future all we'll do is spend time with other couples.  Because that's what you're supposed to do.

    Oh and I completely saw these cute shoes that I'm just going to have to get!!  I don't have nearly enough pairs right now!  With that pair of shoes I'll have to get a matching outfit and purse!  Because you can't have a cute pair of shoes without the perfect outfit!  They're super cute, white with little pink flowers all over them.  Hmm perhaps a flowy white shirt with pink leggings!  Oh that sounds perfect!

    I think that I'm going to start making this blog about fashion!  All the newest lines and designers.  I think that'll be fun!

    Ok...I can't do this anymore...so on that note....APRIL FOOLS!!!  Seriously...if I EVER turn into that girl, take it as a sign that my brain has been eaten by zombies or a face hugger and please shoot me to take me out of my misery!  The day I stop being a geeky lady is the day I...well like I said...zombies or face huggers!  Hopefully you all enjoyed my joke!  Also...OMG PINK....I HATE PINK!!!  But all will return to their regularly scheduled gothy/gamer/geeky amusement tomorrow.  Same bat time...same bat blog...