Wednesday, May 21, 2014
I Will Rebuild Here, I Will Have the Technology...We Will be Better, Stronger, Faster.
There is some sad news for this little Oracle, sadly my wonderful rig, which I've had for a bit over two years has decided to become a heavy paperweight of electronic bits. So until I am able to find myself something else that I can use to post more regularly (looking at something I can do basic netrunning on currently) I may be on a hiatus for a bit. It is making me sad to think about as I have worked pretty hard to keep up to date with all of the quests or dailies which have presented themselves to me. I apologize deeply to all of you my wonderful readers, but fear not I will return! Faster, better, and stronger then ever!
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Casting Illuminate and Calm Person...
This last week I had a scare. My elderly grandmother, whom I haven't always gotten along with in my life fell last Wednesday. She's been falling much more often. It seems that life's GM decided that she needed to have a spell of irregular heartbeat cast upon her. The clerics at the healer's guild in the area could not figure out what was wrong. So each day was caused her to have less clarity and seemed more like she may not be sticking to her mortal coil very much longer.
The clerics to this point, still do not know what is wrong. However they have put a device which makes her heart stay above a specific beat to help prevent some of the fainting / falling. So far it has helped her a lot. She also has been moved to a home for those who cannot take care of themselves at least until she is done with her rehabilitation. It is still up in the air if she will stay there or not. In many ways it would make life a bit easier if she were able to stay there. As it would mean that she would have someone there to help her at all hours of the day and night.
Needless to say it caused me to cast aggravate person and restless sleep on myself, of course without knowing it, so I am grateful for those who put up with my crazy brain for a few days. It was a long week filled with lots of worry and it has ended alright. Still a bit of worry but I seem to have at least been able to cast a dispel magic on myself to get rid of the spells I had unknowingly cast upon myself, so I have slept more then an hour here and there the last two night.s
Last night I was able to release a LOT of that stress as I left the Tower early and headed out to the city with some fantastic people to see the singular musical group that has touched and helped me through SO many things in my life. I was able to just let go, dance a little, and hear some of the songs that have meant so much to me over the years. It still amazes me the amount that certain music can affect someone. These particular bards are extremely powerful. They call to your very soul, pull out the emotions that you may not even know you've been hiding to everyone including yourself and allow you to feel them and let them out / go. Needless to say I have seen them a LOT and each time they have helped me let go of something, helped me feel happier about where life is / is going, or just feel again when I've shut down. Last night I was pulled to that as well. However it was the shared experience with those who were with me and the encores that made this particular show. I feel so honored to have been able to open up to the point we were able to all open up and let go as much as we did.
With all of the events of the last couple of weeks I have been reminded yet again of the wonderful people I have had in my life to adventure with over the years. The amount of amazing adventurers I have had and do have in my life really floors me sometimes. I am eternally grateful to those who choose to stay in my life and adventure with me.
The clerics to this point, still do not know what is wrong. However they have put a device which makes her heart stay above a specific beat to help prevent some of the fainting / falling. So far it has helped her a lot. She also has been moved to a home for those who cannot take care of themselves at least until she is done with her rehabilitation. It is still up in the air if she will stay there or not. In many ways it would make life a bit easier if she were able to stay there. As it would mean that she would have someone there to help her at all hours of the day and night.
Needless to say it caused me to cast aggravate person and restless sleep on myself, of course without knowing it, so I am grateful for those who put up with my crazy brain for a few days. It was a long week filled with lots of worry and it has ended alright. Still a bit of worry but I seem to have at least been able to cast a dispel magic on myself to get rid of the spells I had unknowingly cast upon myself, so I have slept more then an hour here and there the last two night.s
Last night I was able to release a LOT of that stress as I left the Tower early and headed out to the city with some fantastic people to see the singular musical group that has touched and helped me through SO many things in my life. I was able to just let go, dance a little, and hear some of the songs that have meant so much to me over the years. It still amazes me the amount that certain music can affect someone. These particular bards are extremely powerful. They call to your very soul, pull out the emotions that you may not even know you've been hiding to everyone including yourself and allow you to feel them and let them out / go. Needless to say I have seen them a LOT and each time they have helped me let go of something, helped me feel happier about where life is / is going, or just feel again when I've shut down. Last night I was pulled to that as well. However it was the shared experience with those who were with me and the encores that made this particular show. I feel so honored to have been able to open up to the point we were able to all open up and let go as much as we did.
With all of the events of the last couple of weeks I have been reminded yet again of the wonderful people I have had in my life to adventure with over the years. The amount of amazing adventurers I have had and do have in my life really floors me sometimes. I am eternally grateful to those who choose to stay in my life and adventure with me.
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Soaking Silly Sneak Attack Rolls...
Sometimes you just don't know who is going to end up sneak attacking you. For me it's been, come into the Tower, when I don't have communications with field agents I would listen to my music, calmly minding my own business deciphering codes and finding items for people who have lost everything. Not even paying attention unless I get a missive from my fellow magic users here, which usually is something amusing and fun. I really would never have known about the dodge I had to make happen if not for the childishness of one such fellow code breaker upsetting another by not talking to me directly, but instead talking to everyone else. The one who was more upset by it, took me aside and let me know what was going on. So I was prepared for what happened next.
There was an issue, and I wouldn't have been upset by it at all, except how it was handled. Occasionally I will hum quietly to myself when I have my music playing. Now my closest neighbors here in the Tower, like to play, Guess what she's humming. However someone who diagonally sits across the dividers from me apparently had an issue. Rather then coming to me and telling me it was bothering him, which due to my nature would have caused me to do my best to stop and apologize, he went to other code breakers and to my direct higher ups. Threatening to go to our wonderful Human Resources department.
Because of this, I was pulled aside by one of my direct higher ups and a missive was sent out, detailing what personal habits we should not do, by the other one. The first thing on that list was humming. I was embarrassed, I felt betrayed (as silly as that sounds), and wondered why the fellow code breaker, who is supposed to be a friend, and I talk with him often didn't just come to me. But instead used a sneak attack and complained about me to everyone but me.
It really made me wonder if I had in fact re-entered the years of schooling and all of the back stabbing, passive aggressive, immature silliness that happens there. Last I checked, I haven't been there for many years. I don't really understand why people can't move forward sometimes and realize that they are no longer children and we are in an adult environment. Not to mention, if you are truly a person's friend, you really should just talk to them if you have an issue. Instead of sneak attacking and hiding behind passive aggressiveness.
Since that happened I have been keeping my music enjoyment to myself as much as possible. However the person in question still has not apologized for his immature actions. I haven't been returning the behavior by being mean to him, in fact I've shown him that I am bigger then all of that. Well except for the occasionally joke with some of my other code breakers here about no humming and dancing. But it still is a bit flustering. Perhaps someday he will grow up to the point that he will be able to apologize.
There was an issue, and I wouldn't have been upset by it at all, except how it was handled. Occasionally I will hum quietly to myself when I have my music playing. Now my closest neighbors here in the Tower, like to play, Guess what she's humming. However someone who diagonally sits across the dividers from me apparently had an issue. Rather then coming to me and telling me it was bothering him, which due to my nature would have caused me to do my best to stop and apologize, he went to other code breakers and to my direct higher ups. Threatening to go to our wonderful Human Resources department.
Because of this, I was pulled aside by one of my direct higher ups and a missive was sent out, detailing what personal habits we should not do, by the other one. The first thing on that list was humming. I was embarrassed, I felt betrayed (as silly as that sounds), and wondered why the fellow code breaker, who is supposed to be a friend, and I talk with him often didn't just come to me. But instead used a sneak attack and complained about me to everyone but me.
It really made me wonder if I had in fact re-entered the years of schooling and all of the back stabbing, passive aggressive, immature silliness that happens there. Last I checked, I haven't been there for many years. I don't really understand why people can't move forward sometimes and realize that they are no longer children and we are in an adult environment. Not to mention, if you are truly a person's friend, you really should just talk to them if you have an issue. Instead of sneak attacking and hiding behind passive aggressiveness.
Since that happened I have been keeping my music enjoyment to myself as much as possible. However the person in question still has not apologized for his immature actions. I haven't been returning the behavior by being mean to him, in fact I've shown him that I am bigger then all of that. Well except for the occasionally joke with some of my other code breakers here about no humming and dancing. But it still is a bit flustering. Perhaps someday he will grow up to the point that he will be able to apologize.
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