In the next couple of weeks most of us will be celebrating the craziness that is the holidays. There will be many cases of racing other carriages to get from one place to another. There will be much food casting sleep spells on all of us as we eat to the point of being very full. In many cases there will be times of casting armor on ourselves and giving ourselves buffs to deal with all the stressiness that comes with seeing ALL of our family or having to be certain places by certain times to see everyone we want or need to. Take heart however, as soon we shall be through this stretch and get us back to our normal adventuring, however crazy that in itself is.
For me this time of year is always a time for looking back at my year or past couple of years and seeing where I was and how far I've gone. Looking at the past year, I can honestly say that I was correct. This year was for healing and fixing. I spent a good amount of time just allowing myself to have down time. Separating myself from some people who were continuously casting spells on me to make themselves feel better and bring me down and remembering or finding people who are supporting loving and don't use or abuse the fact that I am that as well. I have spent the last year or two learning about who I am, where I want to go and finding a good place for me to be myself.
In the last year I have found a questing partner who I can actually consider a partner and a match, a person who I am completely comfortable with and have let into my heart completely. After letting myself heal and taking time to make sure that I was ready to move forward in matters of my heart. His patience with me at first and his continued ability to deal with all of my crazy makes me feel so very lucky to have found him and been able to get over the fear I had of letting someone in. I can say in complete honesty, if you aren't ready to find someone who can be your partner completely in your adventure called life then you won't. As much as you may want someone to be, once you're ready for them and they come along, it is so worth the wait.
I have dealt with stalker types, there have been a couple (remember Captain Mosquito amongst others), and with people who just didn't understand the world and how it works. There have been giant boss battles, which I can officially say I have won. There have been large achievements which took some work, but I was able to finish them finally. There has been changes in jobs from a horrible job to the Wizards Tower, which has been one of the best things I could ever ask for in a life changing event. I had one of the worst things I could have had happen to me a year ago. I was actually hauled away by the guards from one of the towns around here and spent a night in their local dungeon. Let me tell you how "fun" that was.
The past year or two has been filled with a lot of crazy. A lot of ups and downs, many new adventures, side quests and dailies. Even a new zone or two. All in all I can say as difficult as it was to go through a lot of it, I am glad I did. Life wouldn't seem as full, the levels I have gained in my path would not seem as complete and I may have made some very different decisions with everything in my life. A lot of the things I went through have had high prices to pay, however I have paid them all and now set forth to see if my adventures will bring me that next amazing horizon.
So as I am not positive I will be able to post next week in lieu of all the holiday craziness I will leave you dear readers to your thoughts and reflections. I wish all of you a very safe, warm and joy filled holidays. Talk to you all, next year! Here's to 2014 being the year of better things to come!
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