This last week I had a scare. My elderly grandmother, whom I haven't always gotten along with in my life fell last Wednesday. She's been falling much more often. It seems that life's GM decided that she needed to have a spell of irregular heartbeat cast upon her. The clerics at the healer's guild in the area could not figure out what was wrong. So each day was caused her to have less clarity and seemed more like she may not be sticking to her mortal coil very much longer.
The clerics to this point, still do not know what is wrong. However they have put a device which makes her heart stay above a specific beat to help prevent some of the fainting / falling. So far it has helped her a lot. She also has been moved to a home for those who cannot take care of themselves at least until she is done with her rehabilitation. It is still up in the air if she will stay there or not. In many ways it would make life a bit easier if she were able to stay there. As it would mean that she would have someone there to help her at all hours of the day and night.
Needless to say it caused me to cast aggravate person and restless sleep on myself, of course without knowing it, so I am grateful for those who put up with my crazy brain for a few days. It was a long week filled with lots of worry and it has ended alright. Still a bit of worry but I seem to have at least been able to cast a dispel magic on myself to get rid of the spells I had unknowingly cast upon myself, so I have slept more then an hour here and there the last two night.s
Last night I was able to release a LOT of that stress as I left the Tower early and headed out to the city with some fantastic people to see the singular musical group that has touched and helped me through SO many things in my life. I was able to just let go, dance a little, and hear some of the songs that have meant so much to me over the years. It still amazes me the amount that certain music can affect someone. These particular bards are extremely powerful. They call to your very soul, pull out the emotions that you may not even know you've been hiding to everyone including yourself and allow you to feel them and let them out / go. Needless to say I have seen them a LOT and each time they have helped me let go of something, helped me feel happier about where life is / is going, or just feel again when I've shut down. Last night I was pulled to that as well. However it was the shared experience with those who were with me and the encores that made this particular show. I feel so honored to have been able to open up to the point we were able to all open up and let go as much as we did.
With all of the events of the last couple of weeks I have been reminded yet again of the wonderful people I have had in my life to adventure with over the years. The amount of amazing adventurers I have had and do have in my life really floors me sometimes. I am eternally grateful to those who choose to stay in my life and adventure with me.
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